So, it's been a while.
It's been way too long. I'm just not a very good blogger.
There, I said it. I do not blog well. I do not enjoy writing. Writing words on paper is the bane of my existence. But I also have thoughts I need to share and I don't always have people to share them with.
So here goes.
It's been a rough year.
Once again, my life has been uprooted. I quit going to Samford, went home for a while, went to Vidcon, and moved to Mississippi. I'm at a new school with new people. I have never felt so alone in a place so big. So this is how I handled it:
I changed majors. I got a job. I tried talking in class. I began initiating conversations.
Huge steps for me, really. I'm stressed all the time, but I'm actually making an effort to take control of my life. I still don't really have anyone to hang out with outside of school, but I'm working on it. I thought I was making progress with someone but Christmas break really set that back. So I'm taking advantage of this period of aloneness by facing my feelings of loneliness head-on. Whenever I feel like I'm wallowing in my own negative feelings, I think of something that needs to be done or something I've been wanting to do and I make myself do it. So far, I've cleaned out my closet, learned some new makeup tricks, read a few books while taking bubble baths, and even walked around the mall a time or two just to make myself be around other people. I think it's really doing me some good.
Loneliness happens, but I'm learning that I can do something to ease the sadness that accompanies it. I think it's really helping me get through all of these growing pains.
Hopefully I'll be back soon.
